Thoughts after a show – on being safe & everything turning out OK :)

So I had a show… Again.. of my original songs in which embarrassingly I recently seem to lose all possible faith – my only children: my hug-songs.. and I have been such a bad mother.. If you have read my previous post, you know that – well let’s just say I kind of stopped hoping any of friends would ever make it to one of my shows 😉 Which is kind of good, because I would like to try to hope that my music could just touch some people & people would like it for its sake, and not come as my friends to help me feel better when I lose faith.. So it did not bother me at all. I kind of planned a pause on live gigs (because ‘ no one ever came’ anyway, and well some people I admire, like Stina N, never play live anyway ..) & focus on starting fundraising – via pledge music – for my EP recording project. Thing I was meant to do months ago but well then the faith thing started happening and well.. one gets always busy in London right? (especially when you are good at perfectionism & procrastination 😉. So for tonight I kind accepted some time ago not many may actually make it to the show… but then a friend said she would come. AND bring a friend. And another long lost friend got back in touch saying it was her birthday and she would make her birthday do in the pub where the show was taking place. And another suddenly decided to show up. with a friend too. AND...

Thoughts after a show – on serving ….

So today I had a show… Seems normal but actually only last year & unplanned I suddenly became a ‘band’ on my own & got forced to also become a pianist after nearly 20 years of not touching the keys..And this time, the show was in an old stinky pub round the corner… Sadly as most times they did not have a piano so I had to drag down my mini (=sounding sh**) shaky keyboard & pretend I can play it… And, as usual, with so many friends that “so much want to see me live blah blah”, no one could make it… Ok London is big & there s so many much more fun things to do 🙂 & when there is deluge outside – like tonight – it does not encourage you to go anywhere let alone cross the river 😉 but even though you know & understand it all, it still hurts when you realise after 10 years none of the people you know can show up at your show ((thank you so so so SO much to all who ever came to my shows!!! I was nearly physically ill – I knew I could still run away, & I kept asking myself why I keep doing it to myself: why I keep playing live on shit keyboard? Why do I keep sharing my songs at all? when maybe it s all sh** & I should have stopped ages ago… WHY? I promised I would NEVER do it again. EVER. In nervousness, I panicked & texted a friend to feel better. Aren’t you supposed to share...

Show of my original songs :) on a FRIday 14th Aug :) – New Cross Inn

Another show announced!! YES!! 🙂 If you are free on Friday 14th August do pop in to the lovely New Cross Inn (323 New Cross Road, SE14 6AS London) for an accoustic set of female singer songwriters incl. Sasha Johnst, Nicole Stella – & myself 🙂 Evening is only 3£ to attend (to pay our sandman) so if you fancy some positive energy, music & hugs pop in & say hi 🙂 Facebook event invite...

Another show of my original songs :) Wed 22nd July 2015 in Hackney

This Wednesday 22nd July I have another show of my original Petal songs 🙂 I will be playing in a lovely Hackney cafe joined by 3 other incredible singer songwriters 🙂 It is all FREE to attend and! there is 20% discount on all food and drink that day! All details are below: Event invite on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/events/404490396406347/ Location: The Star by Hackney Downs 35 Queensdown Road, E5 8NN London, United Kingdom Do pop in and say hi 🙂 & bring friends! 🙂...

New show of my original songs – Thu 19th March in Central London 7:00 pm

Next Thu I am absolutely delighted to be playing a set of my own original songs (under my pseudonym PETAL) & be joined on stage by some amazing London bands! I hope you can join us on 19th March in the Workshop in Old street (details below) from 7:00 pm a mini taster here: – one of my most recent songs 🙂 See you there 🙂 Details here: https://www.facebook.com/events/924525330899347...

Special songwriter show in Camden & my original songs – 1st March 2015

It’s tomorrow! Tomorrow I will take part in a very special show I created and organised – in the lovely Bayou in Camden together with 3 other fabulous female singer & songwriters, I will present my original songs at a special songwriter event. We are given Bayou’s stage to present the best of our original work and make a Sunday evening super special. I am nervous, scared, but also excited and very happy!  And to top it all up, our guests have a special 50% discount on food that day! yeay 🙂 I hope to see you all there! Come to Bayou, at 20 Inverness Street  NW1 7HJ, 3 min walk from Camden underground station. Details here: https://www.eventbrite.com/e/women-poets-of-music-unique-evening-of-female-songwriters-tickets-15609783282 And below a video of one of the songs I plan to present there: enjoy 🙂 Maja (aka...